i realised once again life has kept me on my toes this year. It is now just over a month since I turned 40 and my plans for a blog around my Birthday did not quite happen.
So here it is a month late.
People say life begins at 40 or if you watch Cougar Town 40 is the new 20.
However I have found myself reflecting on my life up until this point.
Years ago I used to work in pub while in college. The landlady , a lovely if not hard at times woman used to say. " You know the song I've been to paradise but I have never been to me" Unfortunately I could not remember it but her and her friend sang it on the Karaoke for me ," I feel it will be your life" !
The song has struck a cord throughout my life and now at 40 listening to the words maybe at the time she knew me better than I knew myself.
My version of song
I have been to Georgia and California and anywhere I could run.
I may not of took the hand of a preacher man but he was a vicars son.
But I ran out of places and friendly faces because I had to be free I have been to paradise but have never been to me.
I have not but to Nice but have been to the Isles of Greece and have sipped Champagne on a few yachts.
May not have moved like Harlow in Monte Carlo but in certainly have showed a few what I got .
I been undressed by Kings (well they were the kings of there own domain) and seen some things that a woman ain't supposed to see.
Sometimes I've been to crying for unborn children that might have made me complete
I took the sweet life and never knew I be bitter from the sweet
I spent my life exploring ( well up to 30) the subtle whoring that cost to much to be free
I may have been to paradise but wondered if I had every been to me .
In my 30's I was struck down by a series of health issues some more serious than others also my mother was getting older and her health was not that great.
I stopped running and though a struggle at times maybe I found the person I really was.
So at 40 even though I am still having battles with my body and what life throws at me I know that all my experiences have made me the strong person I am today.